tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8985288635111425215.post2000927258173608200..comments2023-05-25T04:27:07.695-08:00Comments on For the Love of baby Liam: 4 MonthsBeckyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11917822168137274298noreply@blogger.comBlogger17125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8985288635111425215.post-2750273915973141952012-08-29T00:50:56.404-08:002012-08-29T00:50:56.404-08:00It wasn't your fault. Everyone knows that. Tha...It wasn't your fault. Everyone knows that. That doesn't change the way you feel though. <br />I think everyone who experiences the loss of a child feels guilty. I feel guilty that I let my son down. I feel like I let him die. A while ago someone told me that I have to forgive myself for what I did and did not do. She did not argue with me whether I did something wrong or not. She just said I should try to forgive. That helped a bit. I knwo I will never completely shake the feeling that I did something wrong, but maybe I will eventually be able to forgive myself. <br />Evelynn is absolutely beautiful. It breaks my heart to see her beautiful face and know that she is not with you and that you must be in so much pain.<br />I so hope that from now on only good things wil happen to you. Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8985288635111425215.post-55053741459786665172012-08-27T20:43:06.771-08:002012-08-27T20:43:06.771-08:00I wish there were some way to take away all of you...I wish there were some way to take away all of your pain. I know the "what-if" all too well. Our situation was different, but I always think the chain of events could have been different and River would still be alive. I think it has lessened with time, knowing that there is nothing that I can do about it now. It still lingers and I wonder. I quickly remember that if things hadn't happened when they did, it could have happened another time or place. I am thinking of you and hope that there is something that will allow you peace from the "what ifs"Deannahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06299163482958386559noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8985288635111425215.post-11097973800605553542012-08-26T22:18:00.202-08:002012-08-26T22:18:00.202-08:00What Silver said, times a million: it's so ver...What Silver said, times a million: it's so very obvious that you loved your sweet little Liam & precious little Evelynn. If you had known anything was wrong, you would've done everything and anything to fix it and save her. This was not your fault! I am so sorry your gorgeous children aren't in your arms where they belong. You've been through extraordinary trauma - four months is both a blink of an eye and a long time in terms of how long it's been since you held your dear girl but I think in terms of recovering from that trauma it's nothing. And obviously you'll never fully heal from the devastation, I don't mean to suggest that you would ever "get over" this heartbreak, but the PTSD effects - the flashbacks and nightmares and such - will eventually begin to fade away. I hope thats not a hurtful thing to say. I hope you get good news from the RE, and I hope and pray that you find moments of peace daily with loving memories of your children to sustain you on this journey through the grief, and that it leads you to another precious child safely in your arms.Sarahnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8985288635111425215.post-8561680241872205192012-08-26T14:07:53.460-08:002012-08-26T14:07:53.460-08:00You love your little girl - that's so, so clea...You love your little girl - that's so, so clear. The bottom line is that if you had really thought there was something wrong, you would have reacted. It's like the person who walks around with a broken bone because it doesn't feel painful enough to be broken, or the person who dies of a heart attack because they think the warning signs are indigestion. It's not their fault - they just didn't know. It is NOT your fault either - you didn't know. I'm hoping you have good news about Jessica soon and that things start to ease for you.Silverhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15524066274559867949noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8985288635111425215.post-12545700968713133222012-08-24T18:09:23.893-08:002012-08-24T18:09:23.893-08:00It makes my heart break so much. I am thinking of ...It makes my heart break so much. I am thinking of you and your beautiful children.xoxoxoxmichellehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07960223886511130664noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8985288635111425215.post-90501052957917958622012-08-24T15:55:11.417-08:002012-08-24T15:55:11.417-08:00I pray for you every day. I can;t imagine the ang...I pray for you every day. I can;t imagine the anger you're feeling, but ITS NOT YOUR FAULT! I hope Jessica is cleared. Tghinking about you and sending lots of love.Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13666103858316621352noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8985288635111425215.post-91453807705077395392012-08-23T10:42:49.203-08:002012-08-23T10:42:49.203-08:00I am crying for you and Evelynn right now. I would...I am crying for you and Evelynn right now. I would be reliving everything all the time too. I can't imagine the horror of standing by her bed and knowing there is nothing you can do to save her. I have been thinking of you so often. I hope that Jessica gets cleared, you deserve some good news. Sending you love and peace and hugs. Danahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12860497122946287983noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8985288635111425215.post-17414532507351534102012-08-23T06:23:18.287-08:002012-08-23T06:23:18.287-08:00Evelynn is absolutely beautiful, you are SO right....Evelynn is absolutely beautiful, you are SO right. Thinking of you and Jessica today and hoping she will be cleared so you can get started on this next phase. Duckyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07541495487673604312noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8985288635111425215.post-74084616252470584302012-08-22T19:32:19.425-08:002012-08-22T19:32:19.425-08:00I know there is nothing I can say that could possi...I know there is nothing I can say that could possibly take the pain away but I wanted you to know that I am thinking of you and hoping that you can find some way to stop putting so much pressure on yourself. I know it is a difficult journey and there are so many times when it feels impossible to feel anything but hopeless, helpless, guilty, and angry. Just know that we are out here, thinking of you, wishing you could have been able to spend more time with your amazing children, and hoping things turn around so you have more reason to enjoy your life.=Þ Jennyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13769314897639711135noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8985288635111425215.post-75872013769514697832012-08-22T18:07:25.306-08:002012-08-22T18:07:25.306-08:00Your love for your beautiful children shines throu...Your love for your beautiful children shines through every word you type here. There can be no second guessing of your love, that is clear. <br /><br />They are such beautiful children, Evelynn with her dark hair and gorgeous cheeks.., I am sorry that they are not here with you now, so very sorry. You are a good and strong mother and I hope soon a living child will be lucky enough to feel your love. Helennoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8985288635111425215.post-89105081358644373802012-08-22T15:18:00.694-08:002012-08-22T15:18:00.694-08:00I wish you weren't so sad, upset and angry. I...I wish you weren't so sad, upset and angry. I wish Evelynn was here. I wish your life was easier than it has been. I wish Jessica a good appointment tomorrow. I wish you peace and healing, because that's all I'm able to do. I think of you often, and hope something good happens soon.Emilyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17587287197734518952noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8985288635111425215.post-19841555045356072722012-08-22T15:03:12.667-08:002012-08-22T15:03:12.667-08:00I wish I knew how to get rid of the what if's ...I wish I knew how to get rid of the what if's :(<br /><br />Fx Jessica is cleared.<br /><br />Sending my support.Glohttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07501457280483176930noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8985288635111425215.post-68928197627235736942012-08-22T13:59:32.122-08:002012-08-22T13:59:32.122-08:00Sending light and love to you, today, tomorrow, ev...Sending light and love to you, today, tomorrow, everyday. Ameliahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07115154893444857726noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8985288635111425215.post-88501169628522167792012-08-22T13:19:50.378-08:002012-08-22T13:19:50.378-08:00Thinking of you and your beautiful girl. You'r...Thinking of you and your beautiful girl. You're right, she is gorgeous. I wish she were with you. I'm sorry you are experiencing flashbacks. I hope Jessica's appointment goes well tomorrow so you can have something to look forward to once again. xoxLj82https://www.blogger.com/profile/01067562341189588336noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8985288635111425215.post-16022861662191026112012-08-22T13:03:51.079-08:002012-08-22T13:03:51.079-08:00I am sorry that you have to go through this twice ...I am sorry that you have to go through this twice unbearable . I hope and prey for you that something good comes your way soon.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8985288635111425215.post-48361489624952430912012-08-22T12:48:54.660-08:002012-08-22T12:48:54.660-08:00((HUGS)) I hope everything with Jessica's RE ...((HUGS)) I hope everything with Jessica's RE appt goes as it should and she gets cleared!Sarahhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11426032293393714111noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8985288635111425215.post-88839379874426857362012-08-22T12:17:25.070-08:002012-08-22T12:17:25.070-08:00I'm so sorry Becky... I'll be praying SO H...I'm so sorry Becky... I'll be praying SO HARD that Jessica's RE appt goes well and she's cleared to get pregnant.LookItsJessicahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15098271882501686853noreply@blogger.com