tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8985288635111425215.post9106567030492327847..comments2023-05-25T04:27:07.695-08:00Comments on For the Love of baby Liam: ThoughtsBeckyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11917822168137274298noreply@blogger.comBlogger17125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8985288635111425215.post-30089835599322720552012-05-27T14:23:37.483-08:002012-05-27T14:23:37.483-08:00You don't sound crazy- not even close. You sou...You don't sound crazy- not even close. You sound like an amazingly strong mama. I wish there was more I could say or do. I continue to think of you and your children every day. Sending lots of love....Natashahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10184755821618457912noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8985288635111425215.post-79725500266656672652012-05-24T13:55:20.206-08:002012-05-24T13:55:20.206-08:00Thinking of you all today. So.many.hugs.Thinking of you all today. So.many.hugs.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8985288635111425215.post-74855349220148669872012-05-23T03:43:29.124-08:002012-05-23T03:43:29.124-08:00Nothing you have written sounds crazy at all. Con...Nothing you have written sounds crazy at all. Considering all you have been through everything you've expressed is totally normal. I can't imagine all the loss you are having to grieve at the same time, your two precious children plus the loss of getting pregnant again. That is so much to process and grieve. I know I've said this before but I am so very sorry that you are having to suffer through all of it, it just isn't fair. We are still praying for you and thinking of your sweet little ones. Sending love. xxJennhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16614232173945249682noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8985288635111425215.post-77965389859732414242012-05-22T17:58:48.873-08:002012-05-22T17:58:48.873-08:00I remember during the process of getting pregnant ...I remember during the process of getting pregnant with Aidan, I felt the NEED to have a baby SO badly I was googling anything and everything: infertility info, info about cardiac patients like me having kids, IVF info, adoption info, gestational carrier info etc etc. <br /><br />We hadn't even been trying that long (although two couples we knew got pregnant on the first try which was adding to my crazy) AND we had yet to lose a baby, but the drive to get a child home that I could love on was so huge. It felt like I was going crazy, so I can only imagine after two losses how desperate you must feel.<br /><br />I think of you a lot and I hope that sooner than you even imagined, you'll be updating us about your new healthy, happy, alive rainbow baby. I'm just always so sorry it won't be Evelynn.Emilyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17587287197734518952noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8985288635111425215.post-92092723369467372192012-05-22T13:32:34.917-08:002012-05-22T13:32:34.917-08:00Hi, coming out of lurking to say how sorry I am fo...Hi, coming out of lurking to say how sorry I am for your loss. I agree with the others, you are not crazy. There is absolutely nothing wrong with any of the things you are thinking or feeling, except maybe for feeling like less of a woman because you were told not to carry another child. This is something to grieve, of course it is. But please, don't ever feel like you are less of a woman or a mom or a person because of your losses, or because of the recommendation that you not carry another child. But I know, knowing that you should not feel that way, and actually not feeling that way are two different things. <br /><br />I did want to share one thing with you. I don't know if you are ready to go there yet, or consider it yet, but a lot of people are considering international gestational surrogacy as a way to control a lot of the costs associated with surrogacy. My husband has a friend in India who owns a clinic there which is how I heard about this. It is supposedly a lot less expensive than doing it here. It is a long and difficult journey, with a lot of challenges. In some ways easier and in some ways harder than finding a surrogate in the States, but I did want to put it out there for you to google at some point if you were interested. <br /><br />My thoughts are with you and I can't wait until I can read about your little rainbow baby coming home with you and thriving and growing and keeping you up all night.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8985288635111425215.post-11799979862879803002012-05-22T09:03:44.346-08:002012-05-22T09:03:44.346-08:00You don't sound crazy Becky. I know that I wou...You don't sound crazy Becky. I know that I would be researching all the possibilities too. I hope you apply for the grant and that you get it. I want you to bring home a baby to raise and love with all my heart. <br /><br />As a babyloss mother who suffers infertility, I think that you're wanting to donate your eggs is amazing. I don't know you well, we only met through our blogs a short time ago, but it's obvious what a good person you are and what an amazing mother you are too.<br /><br />Thinking of you and always remembering Liam and Evelynn.Tashhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07078703799477411588noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8985288635111425215.post-78185344846631601182012-05-21T20:06:01.654-08:002012-05-21T20:06:01.654-08:00I think of you so often... and you are not crazy a...I think of you so often... and you are not crazy at all. You are grappling with the most terrible tragedy and are such an amazing person to be thinking of others via egg donation in the middle of it all. My heart goes out to you and with you always xoxoDandelionBreezehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06988561541523178095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8985288635111425215.post-37018725775798201872012-05-21T05:24:49.165-08:002012-05-21T05:24:49.165-08:00you do not sound crazy to us. there is nothing we ...you do not sound crazy to us. there is nothing we can say to make this better, and i would never try. but i want you to know that we are all here for and with you. abiding with you. and thinking of your amazing children always. sending you so much love...Tiffanyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17906643480459302192noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8985288635111425215.post-8585918434295279452012-05-20T15:18:08.843-08:002012-05-20T15:18:08.843-08:00You seem to be dealing really appropriately - if t...You seem to be dealing really appropriately - if that even makes since, since nobody should EVER have to deal with things like this, of course. <br /><br />I am glad there are grants available and that you would probably qualify for them, and the idea of donating eggs is so generous. <br /><br />Still thinking of you and your family every day.SGhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10751681504123990038noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8985288635111425215.post-34566647397614270552012-05-20T14:05:38.609-08:002012-05-20T14:05:38.609-08:00Considering all you have been through, I think you...Considering all you have been through, I think you sound remarkably normal! I am sure I would have many of these same thoughts - how could you not? I hope that you guys find the path to parenthood that is best for you and find peace in the process. Like Brandy said - glad you got to experience the pregnancy side of things - but you deserve so much more than that. It's not enough when it ends in tragedy.Carolinehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00101380791416834049noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8985288635111425215.post-49405985496193766572012-05-20T13:55:34.989-08:002012-05-20T13:55:34.989-08:00You absolutely do NOT sound crazy. That you try y...You absolutely do NOT sound crazy. That you try your best to work helping others into everything you do sounds beautiful and heart warming. <br /><br />Light and love to you.Ameliahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07115154893444857726noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8985288635111425215.post-44960356531152413642012-05-20T11:19:38.316-08:002012-05-20T11:19:38.316-08:00I would think the same thoughts and have totally t...I would think the same thoughts and have totally thought the same ones for you-- trying to understand what I would feel in your position. <br /><br />Reading that you never saw Evelynn's eyes breaks my heart even more. I know how much I would've cherished to see Andrew's and having that feeling alone is like a huge gut punch. I am so thrilled you were able to experience pregnancy of your beautiful children, but yeah... that's not enough. <br /><br />I just want you so badly to be holding your children. Liam, Evelynn, and any future babies however they come. <br /><br />I seriously hope you go for any and all grants available. Unfortunately the uniqueness of your story may actually come out to benefit you in this way. Absolutely here to cheer you on and hope more baby Rasmussens can be born to you and Dereck.B. Wilson @ Windy {City} Wilsonshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17479551028143520755noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8985288635111425215.post-75063201665511819902012-05-20T09:35:42.150-08:002012-05-20T09:35:42.150-08:00Your not crazy, your letting it out,processing. I ...Your not crazy, your letting it out,processing. I hope so much that you find a path that will succeed in a baby at home. I am always thinking of you, Evelynn and Liam.xoxoxmichellehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07960223886511130664noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8985288635111425215.post-30743375588742517012012-05-20T08:36:59.428-08:002012-05-20T08:36:59.428-08:00That jealousy and anger is understandable and your...That jealousy and anger is understandable and your right!<br /><br />You aren't crazy! I on the other hand, might be. I keep thinking if i ever get pregnant again and its an unwanted pregnancy, I would find a BLM and give my child to them. "Unwanted Pregnancy" probably sounds like a ludicrous statement. But after having my rainbow, i know i dont want anymore kids. And hearing about your uterine rupture, scares the hell out of me since both my boys were c-section babies.<br /><br />Lots of LOVE and ((HUGS))Sarahhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11426032293393714111noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8985288635111425215.post-90378857758456841692012-05-20T08:14:45.656-08:002012-05-20T08:14:45.656-08:00Absolutely nothing you wrote is crazy. Like in the...Absolutely nothing you wrote is crazy. Like in the least.<br /><br />I understand completely why you're having such a hard time. I think the whole BLM community is having a hard time of handling having this happen to you (again) and we're not living the day-in, day-out stuff. We all want you to have babies, no matter how this is accomplished. <br /><br />Continuing to think of you. xoxLj82https://www.blogger.com/profile/01067562341189588336noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8985288635111425215.post-44162761476421579372012-05-20T07:11:05.873-08:002012-05-20T07:11:05.873-08:00There is a yahoo group for people who've exper...There is a yahoo group for people who've experience uterine rupture. They may have some insights for you when it comes to sub pregnancy and surrogacy.<br /><br />I really hate this is your reality....Glohttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07501457280483176930noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8985288635111425215.post-60508801125061117062012-05-20T06:59:26.605-08:002012-05-20T06:59:26.605-08:00You most certainly are not crazy. I am so sorry an...You most certainly are not crazy. I am so sorry and wish so badly you had your babies here. My thoughts and prayers are with you constantly. <br /><br />As a side note, a good percentage of the population ends up with cataracts, it's part of aging... don't let that deter you from doing what your heart wants. <br /><br />Much love always <3Deannahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06299163482958386559noreply@blogger.com