Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Right Where We Are

Today is July 20th. One year ago today I got my IUI that got me pregnant with Liam. Not much to say about it other than it sucks that he isn't here and I am in the same spot I was in just a year earlier.



I also just have to say how much I love this! I hope everyone who participated in the Right Where I am Project gets a chance to see it. It was created by Josh at JackatRandom who lost his second child. He used bits and pieces of all 160 of us blm's blog posts who participated in this project.
Found mine that I wrote when I was at 5 Months- I just wish I didn't have to lose him to realize all of this. Included at the end is also a section with all our babies names listed out- Liam- sigh


This is what he wrote about it:
This piece is dedicated to the 160 babyloss parents who took part in Angie's epic Right Where I Am project (as of July 18) and to all of our babies that were lost. It is also dedicated to the thousands of faceless parents around the world that lose babies every year (some 30,000 in America alone). I originally joined the project because I wanted to soak up as much as I could from everyone who has gone before us. And as I feel Margot slipping away from me as the days without her trudge on, I felt like this was a way for me to be close to her and to honor her death. So, I read and read and read, all the way up to last night, when I read and filed away the 160th post in the project.

I just want to say a huge thank-you to all of the babyloss parents who participated. Words cannot describe the gratitude I feel for each one of you, whether you are years out from your loss or just a few weeks or months. Each and every post, whether heart breaking or hopeful or a blend of the two, was so meaningful and raw and beautiful in it's own right. There is solace in this beautiful mess of a community we have formed since all of our losses. I titled this piece Right Where We Are because in some strange and mysterious way, no matter how many miles separate us, we are in this TOGETHER. There is strength in numbers and I pull from your strength every day.

6 comments:

  1. Sorry to hear that it's the anniversary of your IUI... I find every milestone/anniversary so unexpectedly hard. Hope your day is bearable and thinking of you. This is such a lovely idea for all the BLparents who joined in... thank you for sharing it xoxo

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  2. I love what Josh did! So wonderful. Sending you lots of hugs momma!

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  3. It is amazing what he did, and really lets others know their not alone. I am thinking of you and Liam on this hard day

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  4. It is so awesome that he put that together. Thanks for sharing this!

    Thinking about you!

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  5. I love it too.. but am having trouble finding the line from my blog :( It's beautiful nonetheless!
    Thinking of you and Liam today.... such a year of ups and downs eh!

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  6. Yes this month is filled with lot of anniversaries for me too and flashbacks.

    It is all very painful.

    I will be thinking of you and baby Liam

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