I know we still have a long way to go but this past week I have felt more and more optimistic. I have even been looking at some of the items that I wanted so badly to get for Liam and how I still want many of those same things for this baby, like a particular stroller carseat combo I had wanted. Also, last year many of my friends and I talked about how we were going to take Liam everywhere with us and just this past week I found myself discussing with a friend all of the things we were going to do once this baby is here.
I did have one freak out moment this past week though. It was on Monday night and occurred after reading a message from a friend. This friend, who I haven't talked to in awhile which I had heard a few weeks back was also pregnant. I wrote a post about that here. She told me that she was planning on going to a prenatal yoga class every Tuesday throughout her pregnancy and was wondering if I wanted to join her and then we could also catch up. I went into an instant panic state. I would love to catch up with her but the idea of being in a room filled with pregnant women scares the crap out of me. Some will be very pregnant, more pregnant than I have ever been, and I still a little envious of them. Some, if not all will ask how far along I am and I most likely will get asked the dreaded "is this your first baby" question. I know I am going to have to get used to that question especially once I show enough that its clearly obvious that I am pregnant, but not quite sure how to answer that yet. Talked to my counselor about it the other day and working on a solution.
My doppler arrived yesterday. Yes, I broke down and bought one. Hopefully I won't drive myself too crazy with it. Tried it out but either I just suck at finding the heartbeat or it is still too early.
My next dr. appt is on Monday to get my full Ob check. My appt was originally scheduled for Thursday in the u/s room, but my dr. decided to take that day off now. My options were Monday or wait until November, but choosing Monday meant no u/s because that room was already booked by the other providers. Crossing my fingers she will be able to pick up the heartbeat with her doppler. I haven't seen or heard my babies heartbeat in 2 1/2 weeks and getting anxious.
Dereck has got me thinking a lot about the sex of our baby. It's still early and I'll be happy either way but from the start Dereck has said we are having a girl. He had a dream awhile back about us having a little girl and is completely set on that. Now my friend called me earlier this week and told me she had a dream that they through a wedding reception for us since they didn't know us when we got married and that we had a little girl with us. Hmmm......
Speaking of weddings, Dereck and I had our third wedding anniversary on Tuesday Oct. 18th. Happy 3 years to us!
Dereck told me the other day that I should start reading again, and by that he means something nonbaby related, because all I have been doing lately in my tiredness is watching tv and reading my pregnancy books. I decided to go grab a book randomly off my bookshelf of a hundred books that I swear I will one day read. By the second page of the book I learn that one of the main characters is named Liam and he owns a bar called the Lamplighter. The Lamplighter is the name of this bar back in Minnesota that Dereck and I met at and hung out at all the time. Found this a little bit of a weird coincidence and thought I'd share.
i think the coincidences in the book were a sign from Liam. :)ReplyDelete
I cant wait to find out the gender! Have you thought of names?ReplyDelete
Try not to be too discouraged if they can't pick up the heartbeat via Dopler on Monday. It may still a bit early to hear through the abdomen.ReplyDelete
Hugs to you!
Lovely to hear that you're feeling more optimistic... and agree with you about the yoga classes - I would struggle with them too. I didn' t realise that you can buy Dopplers... I'll have to get one of them too :) What an amazing coincidence with the book that you picked up... must be a gorgeous sign from your Liam xoxoReplyDelete
It's refreshing to read this amongst all sadness in blm world. The thing about Liam and Lamplight bar is very cute. I really wish everything goes well for you this time. You deserve all the good in the world.ReplyDelete
That's cool that you got a doppler! Like the other poster said, try not to get discouraged if you can't find the heartbeat at first. It's still early.ReplyDelete
Congratulations on your 3rd wedding anniversary and making it to 10 weeks :) :)
Love the "wink" from Liam! I'm so glad you got a doppler and I hope it brings you much peace of mind. There was no such thing when I had my children. BTW, happy anniversary!ReplyDelete