I had to write you again. I am missing you so much right now. I should probably just go to bed but can't stop thinking about Mothers Day. I mean how can I not when there is stuff pertaining to it everywhere I look, and I am not just talking about the flowers, cards, and other gifts that will be given to mothers and grandmothers. I am including in that all of the mothers that I see with there little ones and even the pregnant ones, all of these mothers that will actually have there baby with them on Mothers Day. I know I am a mother, and people keep telling me like I need to be reminded, but it really just sucks that you can't be here. I wouldn't have cared about getting a Mothers Day card or flowers, not that it wouldn't have been nice to have been thought of, but just having you and your father, our family, together would have been enough to make that day super special.
Now I sit and wonder if anyone will even think about me and you on Mothers Day. Would I get a card saying "Happy First Mothers Day". I would love it if someone thought of me and you to send a card, but would it really be a "Happy First Mothers Day." I feel like I struggle with this. I want people to recognize and remember that you are my son and I am your mother, but I've seen the cards they sell for Mothers Day, and well, are any of them really fitting for someone whose baby has died? Although like I said, it would still nice to be thought of, even if its just a phone call to see how I am coping. Maybe I'll just buy some flowers for us on Saturday or have some delivered to the house on Mothers Day. I'd like to at least have some fresh flowers around.
I wonder what they have planned for you guys in heaven to do on Mothers Day. Maybe you can make something special for another mommy that had to leave her little one too soon and go to heaven.
I love you sweetheart
Love Always, Mom