The last couple of weekends I have gotten out quite a bit, doing a lot of hiking and camping. Feels good to get out and doing all the things I love to do again. Just wish Liam could be here. I drove down to Seward on Friday night to meet a good friend who I was going to be hiking and camping with. I was worried about the drive alone. I am not a huge fan of driving long distances the way it is and here I was alone. The drive turned out to be beautiful, clear skies with a gorgeous sunset, and went fairly fast. About 20 minutes into my drive though I broke out crying thinking about how Liam should be here and he is missing this. I really do love this state and it makes me so mad that he can't be here to enjoy its beauty with me. I mean how could Liam not have fallen in love with Alaska like his momma did, its beautiful!
|Love, love, love all of the wildflowers, and this hike was filled with them.|
I had a great couple of days hiking, did 15 miles on Saturday and 6.6 on Sunday. I was surprised that I did so well since my endurance has gone down so much this past year, but now I feel like I am finally getting it back. My friend and I even ran the last half of the hike. Still would give anything to be slow, tired, and pregnant though, or just not have been able to go altogether because Liam was crabby and 15 miles was too much for a 3-4 month old. I tried not to dwell on that thought much, but it is so hard sometimes not to wonder what things would be like if he were here; where he should be.
So anyway, besides missing my boy I have been keeping myself rather busy lately. That is now three weekends in a row I have gone out of town camping, hiking, and/or sightseeing. I still have softball every Monday night and some Fridays, started rock climbing again, working on a Liam project for our house, and lots of other stuff in between.
This past week and a half since finding out I wasn't pregnant has been hard on me, more than it probably should, but all the activities/distractions have been good. I am not sure what I will do this weekend since I am in the process of ttc again and don't want to get all crazy like I did last cycle, but I'll write more about that later.