I have read a lot of articles and books stating that it is understandable to have a nursery all ready for the baby to come home to or even have tons of baby stuff that will no longer be getting used after a loss and that I should just take my time and when I'm ready to then put it all away. Well I guess that makes sense but at the same time it doesn't make sense to me. Liam's room was far from finished. We had a crib with a baby deer nursery set that had matching sheets, blanket, mobile, valence, wall art, clothes hamper, diaper stacker, and lamp. I fell in love with the set as soon as I saw it. Also from Liam's baby shower with family he got tons of clothes, books, and toys and I just didn't want that stuff put away in a box in the the closet. Maybe this is in someway unhealthy to do but I wanted to finish his room still. So Dereck and I painted his room this sort of pastel green color that matched the green in his nursery set and changed the trim and painted it all bright white. I even made his bed which I know he will never get to sleep in and even listened to his deer mobile for awhile. I am still wanting to buy a dresser to put all of his stuff in but for now it is just sitting in his bassinet. I am not sure if this is going to help me through my grieving process or just make things harder on me but I'd like to believe that Liam is looking down at us and the nursery and smiling and is so happy that his mom and dad loved him so much to finish the nursery for him so he could see it. I am also hoping that since he can't be here to use all of his wonderful that he would love more than anything to share them with a baby brother or sister.