Friday, February 11, 2011
So I heard today that my cousin had her baby. I am so happy for her, but at the same time I am so sad. I am not sad for her of course, but for me, and for Liam. I know I can't hide from the world so I don't have to see or hear about another baby, but its so hard to be happy when you can't share in there same joy. Since I lost Liam that is now two people that have had babies and have other friends that have had babies in the past year. Want to see them and there babies, but how, how now, when the mere sight of one makes cry and I feel rage that my baby was supposed to be here too.