What it is it about that word?
I overheard a conversation the other night between two women. The one was telling the other about how she hasn't been getting much sleep because she's been working extra shifts and then taking care of a couple month old baby. The other lady then asked her if the baby she was taking care of was her grandchild. The lady responds saying "no" and that her grandchild died on New Years Eve in California.
What California? You were in California New Years Eve? So was I! I heard that and so wanted to interrupt and ask what city, what hospital, what from, what happened? That would have been weird though, right?
I understand that California is a large state with many hospitals, but I just kept wondering if we were at the same hospital at close to the same time dealing with the same type of loss? I don't know what it is about California. Yes that's where my whole life took a huge turn for the worse. The state where all my hopes and dreams for my baby were crushed. I just hear that word and the pain comes creeping back. It is like a major love-hate feeling. I hear the word California or San Francisco even and my heart races and I just want to know why someone is talking about those places. Maybe I am just hoping that at one point I'll meet someone who has gone through what I have; Fetal surgery to correct Myelomeningocele resulting in the death of your baby. Highly unlikely:(
The lady then continued to say it took her about 4 good months of crying till she finally started feeling better. I felt so bad for her hearing that and so wanted to go give her a huge hug, ask how her son or daughter are handling the loss, and tell her about Liam and my own experience. My heart broke for her and I didn't even know the whole story. I wanted to know, but I probably knew enough, she lost her grandchild, and her son or daughter lost there child and it sucks.
|Thank you Malory|