Well I had my appointment this morning with my Ob Dr. I was a little nervous going into it since I was fearing she would just think I am crazy and had been trying to convince myself last night that there has to be at least a few other people that she has seen that have gone through what I have and have had many of the same concerns when ttc again. I'd assume so at least.
So I told her all of my concerns and she mainly just told me to not change anything from the last pregnancy, which I have been told before, and actually frustrates me a little because I feel if I don't make even small changes and the next pregnancy goes to hell I'll really blame myself.
She also told me I need to get the hell off the internet and quit googling so much. I already know this but I am an information seeker. Think I'll definitely try and cut back though because I have been doing all this excess research about every last little thing that could or could not somehow cause an issue to a growing fetus and really it is just making me more stressed. I just hate it when I read something and my mind gets so locked on it that I can't even think about anything else.
I can honestly say though that after talking to her I have calmed down so much. I no longer feel that crazy urge to want to buy only certain types of lotions and vitamins and other crap because I've read they are the best for pregnancy, since according to my Dr. the majority of people use the same stuff sold on most store shelves and there babies are fine. It's true. Nobody I know that has a healthy living child bought anything special beyond what they were already using everyday in there lives before they were pregnant. So why should I? So now how do I go about never letting anymore of those thoughts like that consume me again, hmmmm?
She did a pelvic exam on me since I have been having so much bleeding in the past month and a half- bled/spotted 32 out of 45 days-yuck. But I guess I can't complain too much since just a year ago my biggest issue was that I barely had a period for 2 1/2 years followed by no ovulating. She said everything feels right other than my uterus is sitting a little off to one side but most likely is caused from scar tissue but nothing to be concerned about.
Finally we talked about the dates for ttc in a few weeks. Things have changed a little. I am now going to stop talking the pill on the 12th, hopefully get my period right way or within a day or so. Then on the 14th I have scheduled an ultrasound to take a look at the follicles and if everything looks good start the clomid again for period days 3-7. We are not going to do an IUI this month. My Dr. said that my body can obviously get pregnant and thinks if we get the ovulation days right things could work out and if they don't then we could possibly try an IUI the following month. She does however still want me to give myself the lovely shot in the stomach to make the follicles burst just before ovulation time.
So there you have it. I feel good and confident now about the next few weeks and glad I made that appointment with her. I have the best OB Dr. ever!
Today I also had my dentist appt. After reading so many other peoples blogs about there dentist bringing up the pregnancy I was a little nervous since last time most of us were in for a check up we were all pregnant and should have our babies with us, not in heaven. My hygienist ended up asking me about my baby right away and how things were going with him. As with most times I get asked this I handle it pretty well. Really I feel like they feel more bad about asking then I do about telling them that he passed away. She felt really bad and talked to me a bit about it and then we carried on with my exam.