Friday, February 11, 2011
Babies everywhere
So I heard today that my cousin had her baby. I am so happy for her, but at the same time I am so sad. I am not sad for her of course, but for me, and for Liam. I know I can't hide from the world so I don't have to see or hear about another baby, but its so hard to be happy when you can't share in there same joy. Since I lost Liam that is now two people that have had babies and have other friends that have had babies in the past year. Want to see them and there babies, but how, how now, when the mere sight of one makes cry and I feel rage that my baby was supposed to be here too.
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This is normal Becky. I am not trying to compare my experience to yours, but after having a miscarriage I experienced the same thing.
ReplyDeleteWhat you are going through is so much worse, and it's going to take time. You are not going to get over this loss, but I promise you will get stronger, and you will learn how to cope with the pain.
This is very normal.. I have a post on my blog about the same thing.. I would turn the other way when I saw a baby or a pregnant lady it was so painful...but will got easier with time. It was also very hard for me when My brother and his wife announced their pregnancy almost 5 weeks after we lost our Liam. I was angry and saddened for myself, even though I was happy for them. you are not alone.
ReplyDeleteI read all your posts and just wanted to say how much I understand what you are going through. I lost my baby son on a Monday too. 29 Nov 2010. Been over months now, but each day is still a hell. Experiencing all the emotions you penned down on a daily basis.
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