Sunday, June 12, 2011

Birthday Call To My Mom

I spoke with my mom about an hour ago. I called to wish her a happy birthday and see how her weekend was since her and my dad had gone camping for the weekend. She mentioned the weather and also how they seen some old friends there that they haven't seen in years. She then started telling me about this older man that they know and how last time they saw him he had brought his 4 granddaughters with him and this time he had 3 grandsons along. My mom said that one of the boys (not sure on the age) was talking about how he loves giving massages. My mom asked if she could get a neck rub since it was her birthday and he said sure. She said she asked him a few questions pertaining to his family and things he likes to do but then at the end of the neck massage asked him what his name was. And wouldn't you know it, his name just so happened to be Liam. As soon as my mom said that I broke out into tears. Liam, was that really that boys name? Was that just some crazy random coincidence that some boy she's never met that happens to be named Liam gives my mom a neck rub on her birthday? Was this some kind of sign from Liam here to give his grandma a massage on her birthday? Who knows, but it still brought me to tears hearing that.


What it is it about that word?
I overheard a conversation the other night between two women. The one was telling the other about how she hasn't been getting much sleep because she's been working extra shifts and then taking care of a couple month old baby. The other lady then asked her if the baby she was taking care of was her grandchild. The lady responds saying "no" and that her grandchild died on New Years Eve in California.

What California? You were in California New Years Eve? So was I! I heard that and so wanted to interrupt and ask what city, what hospital, what from, what happened? That would have been weird though, right?

I understand that California is a large state with many hospitals, but I just kept wondering if we were at the same hospital at close to the same time dealing with the same type of loss? I don't know what it is about California. Yes that's where my whole life took a huge turn for the worse. The state where all my hopes and dreams for my baby were crushed. I just hear that word and the pain comes creeping back. It is like a major love-hate feeling. I hear the word California or San Francisco even and my heart races and I just want to know why someone is talking about those places. Maybe I am just hoping that at one point I'll meet someone who has gone through what I have; Fetal surgery to correct Myelomeningocele resulting in the death of your baby. Highly unlikely:(

The lady then continued to say it took her about 4 good months of crying till she finally started feeling better. I felt so bad for her hearing that and so wanted to go give her a huge hug, ask how her son or daughter are handling the loss, and tell her about Liam and my own experience. My heart broke for her and I didn't even know the whole story. I wanted to know, but I probably knew enough, she lost her grandchild, and her son or daughter lost there child and it sucks.

Thank you Malory


  1. That's sweet about the other Liam.

    And I know just what you mean about wanting to speak to the other mother and know more, I feel like that grabs my attention a lot too.

    Yay for June ;)

  2. Wow, that's crazy that the little boy just happened to be named Liam. Very sweet :)

    I hope you meet someone in the same situation as you one day soon. I know I've scoured online to find someone with two losses that involved chorio that were more than likely IC related, but with no luck. It would be nice to ask questions and see if/how they went about their next pregnancy.

    Thinking about you this month and keeping my fingers crossed for you! :)

  3. Visiting your blog from PAIL. I am so sorry to hear of your loss of your sweet Liem. You and your hubby are in my thoughts.


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