Oh my goodness words can not express how very sorry I am. I am saying so many prayers for you. I have literally thought of you all day. She is so very beautiful how I wish you did not have to say goodbye. Please know many are praying for you and crying with you.((((Big Hugs))))
Thinking of you non-stop. Literally, you have not left my thoughts. I wish there was something we could say or do---there is so much love for you guys out here. Sending love and peace. She was stunning.
Evelynn is so incredibly beautiful. I wish I knew the right words to say. I'm so sorry and my heart aches for you. Thank you for sharing these beautiful pictures with us. You have been on my mind a lot and I am praying for you-that you are okay.
Beautiful - just a simply beautiful baby. Just a simply cruel, fucking unfair world. I have been following your blog for a little while and when I saw that your baby had passed, I just could not wrap my head around it. I was terribly sad for you, but also incredibly angry for you. I seriously want to scream at who ever might be up there listening that I demand to know why you lost your baby - both of your babies. I demand to know why any woman loses any of their babies! I have continued to think of you and your sweet babies since I read that entry and I still just do not get it! I don't know you, I have never met you, and yet I wish I could do something - anything - to help lessen your pain; as if such a thing were possible. I'm so sorry for what you've had to endure and will continue to endure. I will continue to think of you and pray for you (all of you). I pray all the time that if I go to heaven, I hope I am able to witness all the sweet babies being united with their sweet mamas. I think - what a great day that will be; when so much pain is wiped away. I still think this world fucking sucks.
She is gorgeous. God I'm so sorry that this is your reality. That you are facing this pain for a second time. You have been on my mind every second since I found out. I asked Julius to surround you and D with extra love. I'm just so so sorry. We love you guys and those 2 amazing babies of yours
Such a beautiful girl. Your love for her (and Liam of course) is so obvious. I am so sorry she is not with you. Your updated profile breaks my heart even more. I wish you so much luck in the journey to locate a surrogate. If there's anything any of us can do...
Becky, I'll never understand why she was taken from you. It's just not right; it's just not fair. She's so beautiful. Thinking of you and sending you lots of strength.
Oh Becky she is absolutely amazing. Just beautiful. I have been thinking of you and your husband constantly and I am praying for your strength. I wish I had better words to say but there is nothing that makes any sense right now. Just want you to know I am thinking of you and both of your sweet babies......
Oh my gosh, she is so beautiful. Thank you so much for sharing her picture with us, they are all so wonderfully done but I especially like the ones of her in the sweet little gown - they are just gorgeous. Becky I have been praying and praying for you guys, my heart is just broken for you. Will continue to lift you in my prayers and remember your sweet children. xx
She's so very beautiful! I love every picture. Wishing there were some way to help, and sending love your way. I'm so sorry you have to do this yet again.
The anonymous poster has the same words I want to use. She is stunning and I just will never understand how it's possible we can carry and grow these babies to term and be stripped of them. Like the world's biggest cruelty joke. I'm angry for you and want so much to just hug you. She really is gorgeous. May the love of Liam and Evelynn surround you. Thank you so much for being so vulnerable and sharing her pictures. The BLM community surrounds you wih love now and always.
There are no words that any one can say that will give you comfort, but please know I am thinking of you and your family and praying for any peace that the universe can offer you.
Becky-- you guys made such an incredibly beautiful little girl. And the outfits you guys picked are so sweet. I, like everyone else am so angry that this is your reality. I have been truly thinking about you and Evelynn all day everyday since I heard, it has never left my mind. Praying for peace and comfort for you because I know God is surrounding your daughter and son with so much love up there.
Evelynn is absolutely beautiful. Thank you for sharing the pictures. You and your husband and babies have been on my mind nonstop this week. I wish there was something to say that would lessen your pain.
Becky, I don't know you, I have only stumbled across your story from other baby loss blogs. I want to tell you that I am so, so sad for your family. Your children are beautiful and I am angry that you didn't get to mother them here on earth. There is not one fair thing in this entire story. Please know that Liam and Evelynn are remembered and loved my me and many, many others.
I am soo sorry for your loss of both your children. I started following your blog just recently...I have never met you but my heart hurts soo much for your family. When I found out my son had Spina Bifida I knew God had a special plan for him. I pray that you find comfort in the thought of God having a special plan for your family. I wish you luck on finding a surrogate but also I would like to throw out the idea of adoption. There is a beautiful site reecesrainbow.org that has special needs children available for adoption. I can't help but think that a very special baby is just what your loving family needs. (Please don't take that the wrong way...I am just trying to be helpful) I hope nothing but good things for your family in the future...and I know that things will continue to get better from here. After all...you have the two most beautiful angels watching out for you.
I just followed the cue from LJ and saw your updated profile. It's absolutely unfair this happened to you. I just cannot believe it. I read somewhere India is one of the preferred destinations for surrogates. If you are thinking in this direction and need some info (anything at all), please please ask me. I wish there was something we could do to take your pain away, but I know, sadly there's nothing now but just emptiness. Thinking of your beautiful children.
Evelyn has been on my mind since I read your letter to her on Saturday. Thank you for sharing her photos. She was absolutely perfect and beautiful. I am so sorry that she is gone. My heart continues to ache for your family. I am sending prayers your way as you grieve for your precious angels and begin your journey to find a surrogate. xoxo
You and Evelynn have not left my thoughts either. KNOW that there are so, so, so many people who wish we could change this for all of you and WOULD...if only we could.
I have been following your blog for quite some time. I have no words - I am so terribly sorry for the loss of both of your beautiful, beautiful babies. I sit here with tears in my eyes wondering why this had to happen. I will be thinking and praying for you and your family.
Becky, I tried to email you, but it got returned. I just copied and pasted what the email said....
Hello Becky -
I just wanted to express my deepest condolences over the loss of your beautiful daughter. When I read your blogpost about her passing, my heart broke for you. Although I've lost a child myself, I can not for the life of me imagine going through what you are going through right now. Please know that you and Dereck are in my prayers.
Evelynn is a beautiful little girl. (As is her big brother!)
Ashley Quarles ~ Mama to Erik (09.01.04 - 11.15.09), Kaitlyn and Sienna ~ ashleyquarles.blogspot.com
Evelynn is perfect and beautiful! You and your hubby have been a constant thought since hearing of Evelynn's passing. Please, know that so many are praying for you during this time...
She is absolutely beautiful...there are no words, but just want you to know that I am thinking about you and your children constantly. Sending you prayers for strength and peace during this time.
Dearest Becky... she is beautiful. I've been thinking of you so often over the past week and can't imagine the pain you're going through. You are in my heart and sending you love from afar xoxo
I'm so sad for you and your husband and Evelynn, although I must say, I'm glad you're alive and okay. Uterine ruptures can be deadly for moms too.
Evelynn was an absolutely beautiful baby (so much hair!), and was so well loved. It hurts my heart to know that you and Dereck had to make the decision to remove life support. Having worked in the NICU, I've seen the anguish parents go through when this is the only avenue left. A perfectly big beautiful baby...who cannot survive. It's so unfair. I hope you had a lot of supportive family and/or friends around you during the past few weeks.
I've been thinking about you a lot and hoping you are making it through, day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute. Sending you strength from the other side of the continent.
What a beautiful little girl. That cute little cleft in her chin, all that gorgeous dark hair, those sweet little feet and hands. Thank you for sharing her with us. We all keep her, and her brother, in our hearts as we mourn with you. You have support here, for what we can give. You have all been in my constant thought and prayer. I am so sad for you, so angry on your behalf. I can't stand that this is your reality. It's just devastating, and I will never understand it. Love to you from across the miles.
I looked at these pictures of a beautiful baby girl & my heart ached for you so much. To give up Liam, and now Evelynn - I'm just so, so sorry and wish there were SOMETHING I could do to erase this and give your children back to you. Of course, there is not, so I will continue to pray for strength for all of you. I also send my love to you.
Becky, I'm still thinking of you, Dereck, Evelynn and Liam all the time. So much that I'm finding it hard to concentrate and tears well up in my eyes. She is so, so beautiful. I'm so glad that you have so many pictures of her and that you shared them with us. I've studied each and every one of them. My heart just aches for you, for her, for all that could have been.
I don't know you but I ran across your blog. I am so sorry, this is so sad. I just wanted you to know that people are thinking of you and praying for your family. She was a beautiful little girl and she should be in your arms.
Hi Becky, I'm here because I read of your loss on several other BLM blogs. My heart is just breaking to pieces right now for you and I can't seem to dry my tears either. Prayers for you and your hubby's strength in the comes days, weeks, and months. Your little girl is just too beautiful for words!! Much much love to you. xoxox
I found your blog (& many other BLM blogs) awhile ago after my sister delivered a stillborn baby boy last June. I am incredibly sorry & heartbroken to read your post of what happened to Evelynn. She truly is a breathtakingly beautiful little girl, just perfect in every way. I have not stopped thinking about your family. Those pictures are priceless & a treasure. Please know that you are being prayed for by so many people. God Bless Always. ~Kari
My heart is breaking for you and your family, I am just so so very sorry for your losses. Your babies are beautiful and will always live on in you both. I lost my twin son named Liam in 2011. That name is so close to my heart. Thinking of you at this extremely difficult time. - Marisa
Evelynn is such a breathtakingly beautiful girl. We are heartbroken for you and your family. We lift you up in prayer each day. Thinking of you, Dereck, Liam, and Evelynn often.
Oh my goodness, here I am, a stranger thousands of miles away across the other side of the world with tears rolling down my cheeks. I'm so sorry to read of your losses. My thoughts are with you x
i'm from Singapore and came across your blog. we may never meet but please know that i am praying for you and your husband. i will continue to read your blog and pray that i will see you carrying a healthy, beautiful baby. your daughter is such a beautiful angel and i was crying so much to see her. i am not sure what your belief system is, but i genuinely believe you will be reunited with your children one day, that when you meet, they will know you as mum, as if they had lived with you all their lives, and that you will know them just as intimately
the bonds you created with your body will never be forgotten. God bless you and your husband.
Becky, Evelynn is so so beautiful. Why did she have to go? I'm so sorry for you and Dereck. Can't stop thinking of you people.
ReplyDeleteOh my goodness words can not express how very sorry I am. I am saying so many prayers for you. I have literally thought of you all day. She is so very beautiful how I wish you did not have to say goodbye. Please know many are praying for you and crying with you.((((Big Hugs))))
ReplyDeleteThinking of you non-stop. Literally, you have not left my thoughts. I wish there was something we could say or do---there is so much love for you guys out here. Sending love and peace. She was stunning.
ReplyDeleteEvelynn is so incredibly beautiful. I wish I knew the right words to say. I'm so sorry and my heart aches for you. Thank you for sharing these beautiful pictures with us. You have been on my mind a lot and I am praying for you-that you are okay.
ReplyDeleteBeautiful - just a simply beautiful baby. Just a simply cruel, fucking unfair world. I have been following your blog for a little while and when I saw that your baby had passed, I just could not wrap my head around it. I was terribly sad for you, but also incredibly angry for you. I seriously want to scream at who ever might be up there listening that I demand to know why you lost your baby - both of your babies. I demand to know why any woman loses any of their babies! I have continued to think of you and your sweet babies since I read that entry and I still just do not get it! I don't know you, I have never met you, and yet I wish I could do something - anything - to help lessen your pain; as if such a thing were possible. I'm so sorry for what you've had to endure and will continue to endure. I will continue to think of you and pray for you (all of you). I pray all the time that if I go to heaven, I hope I am able to witness all the sweet babies being united with their sweet mamas. I think - what a great day that will be; when so much pain is wiped away. I still think this world fucking sucks.
ReplyDeleteShe is gorgeous. God I'm so sorry that this is your reality. That you are facing this pain for a second time. You have been on my mind every second since I found out. I asked Julius to surround you and D with extra love. I'm just so so sorry. We love you guys and those 2 amazing babies of yours
ReplyDeleteSuch a beautiful girl. Your love for her (and Liam of course) is so obvious. I am so sorry she is not with you. Your updated profile breaks my heart even more. I wish you so much luck in the journey to locate a surrogate. If there's anything any of us can do...
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Becky, I'll never understand why she was taken from you. It's just not right; it's just not fair. She's so beautiful. Thinking of you and sending you lots of strength.
ReplyDeleteOh Becky she is absolutely amazing. Just beautiful. I have been thinking of you and your husband constantly and I am praying for your strength. I wish I had better words to say but there is nothing that makes any sense right now. Just want you to know I am thinking of you and both of your sweet babies......
ReplyDeleteOh my gosh, she is so beautiful. Thank you so much for sharing her picture with us, they are all so wonderfully done but I especially like the ones of her in the sweet little gown - they are just gorgeous. Becky I have been praying and praying for you guys, my heart is just broken for you. Will continue to lift you in my prayers and remember your sweet children. xx
ReplyDeleteShe's so very beautiful! I love every picture. Wishing there were some way to help, and sending love your way.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry you have to do this yet again.
The anonymous poster has the same words I want to use. She is stunning and I just will never understand how it's possible we can carry and grow these babies to term and be stripped of them. Like the world's biggest cruelty joke. I'm angry for you and want so much to just hug you. She really is gorgeous. May the love of Liam and Evelynn surround you. Thank you so much for being so vulnerable and sharing her pictures. The BLM community surrounds you wih love now and always.
ReplyDeleteShe is such a beautiful baby and, again, I cannot believe the unfairness of this all.
ReplyDeleteEvelynn is beautiful beyond words. I've been thinking about you non-stop Becky. I'm carrying you and Dereck and both your sweet babies in my heart.
ReplyDeleteBeautiful photos of your sweet angel. I hope your journey through this sad time is peaceful.
ReplyDeleteWhat a beautiful girl. You and your family have been on my mind a lot, I will continue to pray for you.
ReplyDeleteBecky, Evelynn is beautiful! I am so sorry this has happened to you again. ((Hugs))
ReplyDeleteThere are no words that any one can say that will give you comfort, but please know I am thinking of you and your family and praying for any peace that the universe can offer you.
ReplyDeleteBecky-- you guys made such an incredibly beautiful little girl. And the outfits you guys picked are so sweet. I, like everyone else am so angry that this is your reality. I have been truly thinking about you and Evelynn all day everyday since I heard, it has never left my mind. Praying for peace and comfort for you because I know God is surrounding your daughter and son with so much love up there.
ReplyDeleteEvelynn is absolutely beautiful. Thank you for sharing the pictures. You and your husband and babies have been on my mind nonstop this week. I wish there was something to say that would lessen your pain.
ReplyDeleteBecky, she is beautiful. I am so heartbroken for you, and for our whole community. I do not understand why this had to happen to you all over again.
ReplyDeleteSending you so much love and peace...
Becky, I don't know you, I have only stumbled across your story from other baby loss blogs. I want to tell you that I am so, so sad for your family. Your children are beautiful and I am angry that you didn't get to mother them here on earth. There is not one fair thing in this entire story. Please know that Liam and Evelynn are remembered and loved my me and many, many others.
ReplyDeleteBecky, she is just beautiful. I am so heartbroken for you, and for our community. I just don't understand why this had to happen to you a second time.
ReplyDeleteSending you so much love and support...
Your daughter is absolutely gorgeous. I'm so deeply sorry she is not with you right now. This is just terribly unfair. I'm lost for words.
ReplyDeleteI am soo sorry for your loss of both your children. I started following your blog just recently...I have never met you but my heart hurts soo much for your family. When I found out my son had Spina Bifida I knew God had a special plan for him. I pray that you find comfort in the thought of God having a special plan for your family. I wish you luck on finding a surrogate but also I would like to throw out the idea of adoption. There is a beautiful site reecesrainbow.org that has special needs children available for adoption. I can't help but think that a very special baby is just what your loving family needs. (Please don't take that the wrong way...I am just trying to be helpful) I hope nothing but good things for your family in the future...and I know that things will continue to get better from here. After all...you have the two most beautiful angels watching out for you.
ReplyDeleteShe is so perfect, I'm so heartbroken and sorry for your loss.
ReplyDeleteI just followed the cue from LJ and saw your updated profile. It's absolutely unfair this happened to you. I just cannot believe it. I read somewhere India is one of the preferred destinations for surrogates. If you are thinking in this direction and need some info (anything at all), please please ask me. I wish there was something we could do to take your pain away, but I know, sadly there's nothing now but just emptiness. Thinking of your beautiful children.
ReplyDeleteEvelyn has been on my mind since I read your letter to her on Saturday. Thank you for sharing her photos. She was absolutely perfect and beautiful. I am so sorry that she is gone. My heart continues to ache for your family. I am sending prayers your way as you grieve for your precious angels and begin your journey to find a surrogate. xoxo
ReplyDeleteShe is so beautiful! I'm so sorry for the loss of Evelynn and Liam. Thinking and praying for you!
ReplyDeleteYou and Evelynn have not left my thoughts either. KNOW that there are so, so, so many people who wish we could change this for all of you and WOULD...if only we could.
ReplyDeleteShe is so gorgeous, I love her hair. We are thinking of you, your family, Liam and Evelynn.xo
ReplyDeleteI have been following your blog for quite some time. I have no words - I am so terribly sorry for the loss of both of your beautiful, beautiful babies. I sit here with tears in my eyes wondering why this had to happen. I will be thinking and praying for you and your family.
ReplyDeleteBecky, I tried to email you, but it got returned. I just copied and pasted what the email said....
ReplyDeleteHello Becky -
I just wanted to express my deepest condolences over the loss of your beautiful daughter. When I read your blogpost about her passing, my heart broke for you. Although I've lost a child myself, I can not for the life of me imagine going through what you are going through right now. Please know that you and Dereck are in my prayers.
Evelynn is a beautiful little girl. (As is her big brother!)
Ashley Quarles
~ Mama to Erik (09.01.04 - 11.15.09), Kaitlyn and Sienna ~
ashleyquarles.blogspot.com
beckynelson81@hotmail.com
DeleteBecky,
ReplyDeleteEvelynn is perfect and beautiful! You and your hubby have been a constant thought since hearing of Evelynn's passing. Please, know that so many are praying for you during this time...
xoxo,
Jen
Praying for you guys!!!
ReplyDeleteShe is so beautiful <3
ReplyDeleteShe is just so incredibly beautiful. I have been thinking of you. We are sending you lots of love and prayers. Many many hugs, dear friend.
ReplyDeleteHere from LFCA. Your daughter Evelynn is just beautiful. Just beautiful. (Of course, so is Liam). I am so terribly sorry.
ReplyDeleteShe is just beautiful Becky. God Bless Evelynn and Liam. I've been thinking of you daily, sending all my love to you.
ReplyDeleteWhat a beautiful little girl. Thank you for sharing Evelynn with us.
ReplyDeleteShe is absolutely beautiful...there are no words, but just want you to know that I am thinking about you and your children constantly. Sending you prayers for strength and peace during this time.
ReplyDeleteJust breathtaking, I am so sorry and angry you have to feel this pain once again. Thinking of you all
ReplyDeleteI am so, so sorry. Evelynn is so beautiful, what a perfect angel. I just want to ask why after all you have been through.
ReplyDeleteSending thoughts and prayers.
Kelley
Dearest Becky... she is beautiful. I've been thinking of you so often over the past week and can't imagine the pain you're going through. You are in my heart and sending you love from afar xoxo
ReplyDeleteBecky,
ReplyDeleteI'm so sad for you and your husband and Evelynn, although I must say, I'm glad you're alive and okay. Uterine ruptures can be deadly for moms too.
Evelynn was an absolutely beautiful baby (so much hair!), and was so well loved. It hurts my heart to know that you and Dereck had to make the decision to remove life support. Having worked in the NICU, I've seen the anguish parents go through when this is the only avenue left. A perfectly big beautiful baby...who cannot survive. It's so unfair. I hope you had a lot of supportive family and/or friends around you during the past few weeks.
I've been thinking about you a lot and hoping you are making it through, day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute. Sending you strength from the other side of the continent.
What a beautiful little girl. That cute little cleft in her chin, all that gorgeous dark hair, those sweet little feet and hands. Thank you for sharing her with us. We all keep her, and her brother, in our hearts as we mourn with you. You have support here, for what we can give. You have all been in my constant thought and prayer. I am so sad for you, so angry on your behalf. I can't stand that this is your reality. It's just devastating, and I will never understand it. Love to you from across the miles.
ReplyDeleteI looked at these pictures of a beautiful baby girl & my heart ached for you so much. To give up Liam, and now Evelynn - I'm just so, so sorry and wish there were SOMETHING I could do to erase this and give your children back to you. Of course, there is not, so I will continue to pray for strength for all of you. I also send my love to you.
ReplyDeleteBecky, I'm still thinking of you, Dereck, Evelynn and Liam all the time. So much that I'm finding it hard to concentrate and tears well up in my eyes. She is so, so beautiful. I'm so glad that you have so many pictures of her and that you shared them with us. I've studied each and every one of them. My heart just aches for you, for her, for all that could have been.
ReplyDeleteWhat beautiful pictures of your sweet Evelynn. I am so sorry that you are going through this. Thank you for sharing these with us.
ReplyDeleteI don't know you but I ran across your blog. I am so sorry, this is so sad. I just wanted you to know that people are thinking of you and praying for your family. She was a beautiful little girl and she should be in your arms.
ReplyDeleteEvelynn is absolutely perfect. I am so terribly sorry for your loss. Praying for you, your husband and family.
ReplyDeleteHi Becky, I'm here because I read of your loss on several other BLM blogs. My heart is just breaking to pieces right now for you and I can't seem to dry my tears either. Prayers for you and your hubby's strength in the comes days, weeks, and months. Your little girl is just too beautiful for words!!
ReplyDeleteMuch much love to you. xoxox
She is beautiful. I am so very sorry for your loss.
ReplyDeleteI am deeply sorry for your loss. I pray you will feel comfort in the knowledge that you will see your babies again. Sending prayers your way
ReplyDeleteI found your blog (& many other BLM blogs) awhile ago after my sister delivered a stillborn baby boy last June. I am incredibly sorry & heartbroken to read your post of what happened to Evelynn. She truly is a breathtakingly beautiful little girl, just perfect in every way. I have not stopped thinking about your family. Those pictures are priceless & a treasure. Please know that you are being prayed for by so many people. God Bless Always.
ReplyDelete~Kari
I just.....I just have no words. I am so sorry.
ReplyDeleteMy heart is breaking for you and your family, I am just so so very sorry for your losses. Your babies are beautiful and will always live on in you both. I lost my twin son named Liam in 2011. That name is so close to my heart. Thinking of you at this extremely difficult time.
ReplyDelete- Marisa
Evelynn is such a breathtakingly beautiful girl. We are heartbroken for you and your family. We lift you up in prayer each day. Thinking of you, Dereck, Liam, and Evelynn often.
ReplyDeleteOh my goodness, here I am, a stranger thousands of miles away across the other side of the world with tears rolling down my cheeks. I'm so sorry to read of your losses. My thoughts are with you x
ReplyDeleteHi Becky,
ReplyDeletei'm from Singapore and came across your blog. we may never meet but please know that i am praying for you and your husband. i will continue to read your blog and pray that i will see you carrying a healthy, beautiful baby. your daughter is such a beautiful angel and i was crying so much to see her. i am not sure what your belief system is, but i genuinely believe you will be reunited with your children one day, that when you meet, they will know you as mum, as if they had lived with you all their lives, and that you will know them just as intimately
the bonds you created with your body will never be forgotten. God bless you and your husband.
much love,
Ruth